Monday, February 8, 2010

(Re)Start Your Engines....

It's 2pm, and both girls are napping (amen?). We had a glorious snow-day today, and even though Maple Anne has a nasty little cold-plus-fever, I have enjoyed both the house cleaning and the lounging that snow days bring.

Last night was the super bowl... and the super bowl party... and the super bowl party food that comes with the super bowl and the super bowl party...

Combine that with a busy day and lack of food preparation, I broke down.

It's not cool. I'm not supposed to break this diet at. all. for 20 days. But, sometimes life happens, and as much as I would like to think that I will always be prepared with a handful of almonds when only chips are available, the truth is that I don't always have control over what food is set before me. So, I ate what was deliciously available... in small, single portions.

If I weren't on this 600-calorie-a-day kick, I might even be proud of the way I ate last night.

So here's the thing...

I'm an all-or-nuthin' kinda gal. And since I "fell off the wagon" last night, my first instinct is to say, "Dang, I failed. It's over. I will forever be overweight."

But I have been down that path, and I know where it leads.

So today I'm making a choice. Last night, and nights like last night, are and forever will be inevitable. I must choose to eat in moderation and jump right back on that wagon the next morning.

I hate that my 20 days have been interrupted, and I am considering starting the 20 days over again tomorrow (while still counting the past 12 days as part of the grander 90-day goal).

According to the good Doc, it takes 20 days for the brain to "reprogram" itself out of old addictions and ways of burning fat. If those 20 days are interrupted, the "cycle" may not be completely broken.

Soo... I'm in a bit of a quandary. Start the 20 days over again tomorrow? Or keep on truckin' for the remaining 9 days and hope that all the hormone stuff has been fixed???

Even posting that question makes me think I should start over... what do you think?

4 comments:

Jessica Ham said...

I would first say that you don't feel defeated...look at it as a test run...a prelude to your 20 days and then start your 20 days over knowing that if you did it for 11 days last time, you can do it for 20 this time!

Brandy Thixton said...

That's the way I'm leaning, Jessica. Thanks for the encouragement!!!

Jess said...

Friend, I think I would start over.

You can do it.

You can do 20 days of ANYTHING! You did 20 days pregnant (ugh), 20 days with Brandon in a different country than you (or atleast close to it...being Mommy AND Daddy), 20 days away from EVERYONE while in Korea, 20 days of wifedom, 20 days of mommyhood...

You can do it.

I guess that means I can do it, too.

I gotta get a grip.

P.S. I just let Ava cry it out. I hate it everytime, but it didn't take long. You can do that, too! Love...

Brandy Thixton said...

Wow, thanks friend! I think tomorrow will be Day 1... again.

As for the crying out... we'll start it as soon as she's over her cold.... bummmer, dude.

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